Endless possiblity.

Trying to connect the stars like I connected the dots I try so hard but can't get a picture like I use to. Since you stopped calling there's a lot of things I can't do.

Last one for the night.

You go to escape everything you hate you go to forget everything you did today you go and wish you were someone else you stumble out the door looking around for your keys you left the door unlocked you get inside having trouble getting the keys in you finally get the car started you now know your coming back to your what you consider a oh so miserable life of a home with a wife and a two kids. A quick wrong turn and now your laying in a ambulance with lights shining in your eyes as you cough up blood and gasp for air you tell the paramedic "tell my wife and kids I lov..." Don't go a day with out telling your loved ones you love them.

The Only One For Me.

The phone clicked and my heart dropped your words were like daggers cutting threw me pouring out everything inside me. Now your one less person in a picture frame. One less person on my holiday list. One less person to call. One less person to text. One lest person , Wait , You were the only person.

Sharing.

As I lay here and watch you sleep I'm not trying to lay down and count the sheep I count your eyelashes one by one. I watch your body inhale and exhale the air I breathe out as I breathe in the air you breathed out a cycle of giving.  Ever since I met you I'm living.

Why?

Distant and scared turning the corner and your not there my phones not ringing my dreams aren't dreaming my screams aren't screaming the headlights are beaming I'm blinded with no sense of direction when I can't feel your affection can't help but to think that we were perfection now I'm left in this dark room doing some reflectin this is what I was afraid of what I feared... disappeared just to reappear to open arms. What have I amounted to welcoming suicide I know it wont reject me I would have done anything for you I loved you unconditionally laying here why time fly's by flying like you flew from my life.

Broken down home.

Another rainy day to lay around and think. Depressing thoughts drip threw my head like the broken kitchen sink. Must you come by all the time and tear down my thoughts like this drywall falling off the walls the echo of hurt yells down these halls. Emptiness is all I know I never felt welcomed , this door mat may say it like a smile on my face I look inviting but I won't let you in. Don't think of walking into this open house or get any interest in buying you will end up moving like the others.

Daily Routine.

Late nights consisting of 5 A.Ms... Doors slamming... Coffee brewing.. And the sun rising.. Oh How I never liked the sun so much.. this insomnia will be the death of me.. foresee a ruff day ahead of me of 12 pm alarm clocks , birds chirping and cars honking.. oh what have I done to deprive my body of sleep deep down knowingly this is unhealthy.. take action my brain says there is a solution you need to make your self a resolution.. My heart can't bare it.. this is what its about.. heart broken.. outspoken from my brain playing tricks telling me I'm fine.. reality never hit any harder.. this bed and sheets and pillow are nothing but a coffin.. time for Dracula to sleep and count his sheep.. the sun cant seep threw here I'm better off alone on my own.

The lost fire.

I stumble around the woods searching for the right things to burn this fire which I have tried oh so many times to rekindle friendships with friends from the past was it just high-school the reason these things had last. Ive lost this fire there's nothing that can make it burn... Another lesson learned.